Miss u a lot..

I don't know why, lately i feel stranded. Going very far from my beloved. my dear friends , if u read this blog please keep in touch with me. i miss u a lot. i've made several call with some of my friend, but the result is "please try later, thank you". maybe i'm quite pessimistic, and i realise that i should think like this, "O, maybe they have lot of works to do". But i can't bear of feeling this missing. How i wish that we have another chance to be together like we did in the past...

UIA oh.. UIA

Hari ini genap tiga hari aku berada di Centre of Foundation Studies (UIA) di kampus Nilai. Well even kampus kat sini x secantik main campus kat Gombak tp it's okay. Pada 24 may aku mula mendaftar di Petaling Jaya and stay there until Friday induction programme. Kenapa?? sbb kampus di Petaling Jaya is for science-based student only. For nilai it's special for art-based student. Kt sini competition agk tinggi or tough. semua org kat sini pandai2. sometimes rasa rendah diri pulak. tp takpe this is the new beginning. I have to strive to excel. and for formal ceremony or educational programme we have to speak in english or arabic, but usually people here use english not many of us can speak in arabic fluently, but i think most of them can speak english, i mean better english.

Here, (nilai) there are some foreigners and i'm quite excited.(huhu). perkara yg i think i suppose to tell you that di kampus ni dekat dgn nilai square so bolehlah cuci mata, klu x beli pon, tgk2 aje.and 10 jun ni dgr2 akan ader uptown berhampiran ngan kampus kitorang. entahlah ... memang seronok tp emm kne jge perbelanjaan. Being here, i realise that how hard to live by my own. i have to control my badget and others. smpai cni aje. nnti cyber-cafe ni charge lebih lak. assalamualaikum ...salam sayang..

TanggaL 11 Mei 2009

Tipah dan sakinah dah masuk KUIS,
Mardhiah pun sama,
On call.. kak iera 25 haribulan ni,
Farzana dan aqilah pulak masuk matriks

Aku??
beginilah aku masih dalam keadaan menunggu-nunggu, still waiting for my second application UPU, and still confusing in making choices. Even tawaran yang dapat tak banyak pun. I got offer to continue my study in lower six for stpm at S.M.K Putrajaya Presint 8 (1) and i go there. I've interested in making stpm. But i don't know wether to go UPU or continue my form six even UPU result still not announce. Just this condition complicated me and waiting for some thing is such tortured myself. Entahlah...Najwa pun sekarang kat S.M.K BBST, making her stpm (God willing).

If i get foundation studies, God willing i'll go there.
but if get diploma, maybe i'll continue my stpm. Kalau boleh nak tau keputusan rayuan esok and then aku boleh decide , barulah hati tenang.

Another problem is my mother.
Mak kalau boleh nak aku masuk universiti (asasi).
Mak pun tak kisah kalau aku nak masuk tingkatan enam. Just she sometimes (i think) don't like i'm schooling there.I understand she worried if i cannot control myself, involving something not good and also worried for my safety.But, please being supportive, and trust me. Entahlah.. bila dah besar ni aku tak suka dipandang rendah dan tak suka orang ragu2 terhadap diriku, i mean they must trust me, selagi benda tu tak salah dari sisi agama Islam.

My second problem is,
I have stand pat to take History package. There are 2 packages offered for stpm in the school.

package A- history (consist of)-general paper, malay language, business studies, and of course history.
package B- economy (consist of)- general paper, malay language, business studies/art, and economy/computing.

my mom said "history, history again why don't you choose something more challenge like economy. what use of history? the career skop?"
This situation made me complicated. i don't want it be worst.Sampai satu tahap mak cakap pakej sejarah tu kiranya kelas yang paling low even i got 6A's and something2 (well zaman sekarang ni orang dah tak pandang dah 6a, nothing should be proud of) Uhh....I do love history.

actually i'm offered science course but i don't want it. i rejected earlier, because i know and i realise now what is my quality and my limits. Besides i'm weak in calculating, i mean calculating is not my gradient. tu pun mak suruh ambil sebab peluang kerja banyak. antara minat dengan peluang kerja?
i don't know your opinion but for me, interest should comes first, when it comes everything run smoothly.

"If there's a will, there's a way"

To me word 'will' means strong desire and full of interest..

Just now i think my mom quite regret of me. what should i do?

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Cerita kedua ni pula pasal sekolah baru.

SMK PUTRAJAYA PRESINT 8(1), PUTRAJAYA

my background is from islamic school from form 1 until form 5. Suddenly i got this school . the enviroment is very different. i think i almost got fever schooling here, maybe i got culture shock.

Apapun apa yang aku sedar, masa sekolah lama dulu i don't need to rack my brain thinking how should i adapt and handle this situation, but now i have to. entahla........aku slalu risau dengan keadaan sekeliling. bila dah concern dgn situasi ni brulah aku nak cari balik kekuatan yg perlu ada untuk menempuhi semua ni, walaupun sebelum ini kekuatan itu aku ambil sambil lewa sebelum ni. dan kekuatan ini adalah iman.

dan bila dah berhadapan dgn situasi ni, aku jadi kangen dgn sambbst.

apapun form 6 kat sini ok je.
malam dah tua dah. mungkin aku patut tidur. esok nak pergi sekolah, menempuhi hari2 yang menggetirkan...(buat kawan2 doakan diri ini supaya kuat jati diri).

Kecantikan itu.......

14/1/2008
08.57 p.m.
Bilik study blok D,
Asrama Puteri S.A.M Bandar Baru Salak Tinggi,
Sepang, Selangor Darul Ehsan.

Hidup ini sungguh misteri. Alam dan kehidupan ini sukar untuk ditafsir.

Manusia menterjemahkan suatu kecantikan berdasarkan perspektif mereka. Menurut fakta, ukuran untuk luas adalah sentimeter persegi, manakala bagi gelombang adalah 'Hertz'. Tiada ukuran khusus untuk kecantikan. Bak kata pepatah Inggeris, "Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder". Makna cantik itu amat mendalam dan sukar diterjemah. Ada manusia mengatakan pemandangan senja di tepi laut itu indah. Apabila ditanya, "kenapa? Entahlah sebab cantik". Aku cuba mencari-cari makna tersirat disebalik keperbezaan penilaian seorang insan. Akhirnya aku sedar bahawa perspektif seseorang itu adalah berbeza.

Begitu juga dengan haiwan. Sesetengah pakar motivasi percayahaiwan yang diminati seseorang menunjukkan keperibadiannya. Aku sendiri meminati burung. Kenapa burung? Sebab burung itu bebas merantau ke mana saja dan bisa terbang tinggi. Dia boleh melihat kehidupan dan alam ini secara total 'live' dari udara. Ruang angkasa yang lapang , burung bebas terbang mengikut rentaknya. Kicauannya yang merdu membuatkan aku tidak jemu menadahkan telinga.

Aku juga suka menikmati langit malam. Terutamanya malam yang cerah dipenuhi bintang-bintang. Aku selalu menyamakannya dengan kain baldu hitam ditaburi batu permata putih yang berkilauan. Kadang-kadang aku selalu membayangkan diriku berada di sebuah padang rumpur yang luas. Disitu aku akan berbaring menghadap ke langit. Aku mengimpikan langit malam yang indah. Indah menurut perspektifku adalah tiada mendung kelabu di langit. Hitam merupakan warna hitam yang asli dan sejati, kemudian ia ditaburi dengan berjuta-juta bintang yang bergemerlapan. Aurora menambahkan seri malam impianku.

Namun, bagiku antara bulan ataupun bintang, aku lebih menyukai bintang. Sebab bintang berkerlipan. Bintang juga memancarkan cahaya miliknya. Bulan pula indah pada mata, namun disebalik angkasa, bulan dipenuhi kawah-kawah hasil tindakan meteorit. Bulan juga meminjam cahaya daripada matahari.

Hidup ini terlalu misteri dan manusia masih banyak perlu belajar dan teroka alam ini.
Tetapi sayang, manusia sombong. Mereka tidak mahu belajar dan ambil pengajaran dari alam. Sebelum minda terbuka, tangan terlebih dahulu menghancurkan...............

Falling in love? It's unexpectable..

So.... your first impression of this title ought be...
(let me guess)

"Is she falling in love with someone?"
"Got couple?"

Of course no, coupling is children' playing.. but falling in love it could be happen to anyone. I'm single but not easily available.
Well, this is just a part of my masterpiece in the future. Ha, ha, ha, just pulling your leg.

We might had been dreaming of our future 'prince charming' or 'princess diaries' when we were in childhood. How should she or he looks like.

whether,
the big or slimmer one,
the blue-eyed or hazel-eyed,
the chinese-look or europe-look,
the beautiful or prettier one,

It could possibly anything depending on a person.
Mentioning 'beautiful and pretty'. What is the different using of its?

pretty :look pleasant, we feel pleasant when we see a person who like smiling and we feel pleasant seeing a person doing charitable act.
beautiful : good-looking in appearance, perfect

But we cannot expect to whom we would fall to. Maybe it is someone that we never imagine before.
If that in case, we usually fall to their values.

That's all for today. I'm going to sleep.

MORAL VALUE:
-Find a soulmate that truly love you, but not make you the highest peak of love, because he or she would willing to accept your weakness because of Allah.

JuSt want To sHare...............

peOplE always say, sharing is loving......

So, emmm...........

(let me think again )
(where should i start?)

Never mind,
forget it.

I have read Milon Nandy's book titled, "Choosing the correct word for speaking and writing English everyday".

In my opinion this book is very good for all ages.

Overall, the writer highlighted some simple words that have same meaning. For example, "hear" and "listen".

How to differentiate between these two words??

emmm.....are these too hard to think?

Of course, no. Justify our mind setting that "English is fun and simple".
Back to our main point.

(all these explaination is according my own understanding, i'am not copying the book. )

"Hear" is,
We hear noises around us and we do not pay attention towards the sound.
Example: I hear some noises from the backyard.

On the other hand,

"Listen" is,
We pay attention towards the sound.
Example: If you want to avoid her, you must listen me.

Lastly, I hope this some information could give you benefit and
"Many peolpe think English is interesting to learn, but most people do not find it amusing"

(p/s: what is the differentiation between 'interesting' and 'amusing'. Think it again or get the Milon Nandy beneficial book)

SeLamAT TInggAL HiSAmuddIN..........(sweet memories)

Semalam merupakan hari terakhir aku berada di SAMT Hisamuddin. Sepanjang 4 bulan aku belajar STAM, banyak perkara yang dapat dipelajari, secara formal @ tak, even aku buat keputusan drastik nak berhenti STAM. Just it does'nt mean i do not have interest learning religion education, (it hard to say) just the course is not my line. Apapun, by the way, banyak benda yang aku pelajari. Aku belajar menjadi lebih matang (yalah kan sbb title pun dah form 6, so malulah sikit ngan adik2 bawah), belajar menjadi orang yang lebih yakin, berani dan bermaruah. Buat sahabat2 yang berada di Hisamuddin, bagi yg meneruskan STAM, keep studying and keep fighting, hope you'll get MUMTAZ. Bagi yg tak tahu nak pilih samada STAM, matriks ataupun upu, buatlah keputusan yang terbaik, i'll pray for your success.

Kepada sahabat2 yg berada di hisamuddin, (maryam jameelah, nabilah rapiee, atiqah malik, Fakhriah{fasir}, asmaa syahiifah, farikhah,shakira, nor huda abdullah, ida norfarhana, ainil hawa{aiho pot..............t}, syiqah{syico}, nida, roqaiyah{busuk}, siti nor ain, asidah, maryam, kak mira, mira, syuhada{syuvic}, azyan, fathir, adilah{edi}, husna, mia, saiedah, najihah kkb, farah huda, najwa, nadiah, farhana jailani, rifai'ah, norli, aziah, adilah dan adibah rahmat dan lain2 ) video cute ini khas untuk kalian. Hope you enjoy the video (it's amusing)